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Thursday, 31 July 2008

  • Currently Listening
    Unbreakable
    By Backstreet Boys
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    recently written song

    Long Distance Love

    I'm sitting by the window
    looking at the rain fall down.
    Wishing that you were here
    with me.
    It's so hard for me to be away
    from you, but life has its moments
    and I'll always be waiting for you.

    I know that we gotta be in
    different places, but you will always
    have my heart.
    You are far away and the rain
    is still falling, but my heart is crying
    out for you.

    Chorus:

    Long Distance Love is so hard
    to come by, but it will be worth it in
    the end.
    Our love is strong and nothing
    can ever change that.
    Love Distance Love is hard to
    deal with, but I know that I'll be
    okay in the end. (x2)

    (repeat chorus)

    I've been spending every minute
    thinking of you and how much I
    want you with me.
    It's hard for me to be apart
    from you, oh don't you see
    how I want you here with me.

    Long Distance Love has it's own
    meaning, but it makes me think of you.
    I hope you know what I am feeling,
    cause its the best that that I can do for
    you.

    Bridge:

    The Rain has almost stopped,
    but you are still not here with me.
    Long Distance Love is just
    killing me inside.
    My heart has been crying out
    for you since we have been together.
    I 'm sorry, but I want my
    Long Distance Love.

    (repeat chorus)

    I'm sitting by the window
    looking at the rain fall down.

Thursday, 10 July 2008

  • Currently Listening
    Something to Be
    By Rob Thomas
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    stuff to think about

    Oh my gosh, its been awhile since I have written a blog on here, man. There are a lot of things that have been going on in my life, since i last wrote a post. I am doing well, i finished the Transition Program - woo hoo! I am super happy about that, hehe. I also have my birthday coming up, yep yep. Next weekend on July 20th. I will be 22. Gosh, thats so scary to think about, i am truly getting older, and its not a good feeling, although, i know people who are older then me, but still its weird. I have also been hanging out with Gwen, since she has been home. I know, she is moving away in 2 weeks, but im happy that at least I've got time to spend with her. She is truly amazing. LOVE YOU, GWEN! I know, that she will have an amazing time living with Renee in North Carolina, and I will definitely be going to visit them. So, I have been thinking a lot lately about many things, friendships, relationships, and other weird things that have crossed my mind in a weird yet creepy kind of way. I dunno- its kind of crazy, because I went through one of those stages where I made a friend online, its called IMVU, I am sure that many of you have heard of it. Anyway, so I have been to talking to this guy since last December and he's a nice guy, but yet again you can't always trust everyone,right? And so now I saw the real side of him the other day. I thought, man what kind of sick and twisted person lets there girlfriend rule there life. Apparently, his girlfriend has control issues/ she controls him and his life, i mean she picks his friends for him, and everything. Its weird, because i liked being friends with him and talking to him and everything. Yeah - Carson is one of those people that listens to everything his girlfriend says. I am telling you, he will regret going back out with her eventually, no one should treat there boyfriend the way she treats him, and the way she treated me. I dunno - I know that may sound kind of cruel, but its not because I am just stating my opinion, even though he may not like it and i really don't care anymore, but i just thought that it would be cool to still talk to him every once in awhile. According to him, he knows everything and that he's smarter then everyone. I find that so hard to believe. Anyway, so basically his girlfriend who doesn't even know me, ended my friendship with him. What do you think about that? I think that's wrong and that she's got issues and needs to learn that her boyfriend can pick his own friends without her help, he's a BIG BOY. Gosh, it just made me sick. Anyway, thats all for now. I am done with all this drama, i had enough of it in College and i don't need it anymore. Thats basically what I have been trying to get over and i know i should be over it by now, because its not my problem and that i shouldn't worry about that. So, im officially done. Just let me know what you think when you are done reading this. Thanks - till next time.

Friday, 04 April 2008

Saturday, 02 February 2008

  • Currently Watching
    Spanglish
    By Adam Sandler, Téa Leoni, Paz Vega, Cloris Leachman, Shelbie Bruce
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    Hard To Walk Away (new written song)

    HARD TO WALK AWAY

     
    It’s hard for me to walk away from you, but I know that’s just what I gotta do.
    It will be hard for you to understand, because you’re so used to be being around me and talking to me and making me feel better.
    I know, that life goes on and everyone moves on with there life, but for me that’s the hardest thing to do.
    It’s hard for me to walk away from you.

     
    I know, that you will try to understand, because you’re just good at that.
    For me, its so hard to deal with things like this, so the best thing I could is just to walk away from you.
    I am not happy with the way things have turned out, but all I need to do is just to walk away from you, yeah from you.
    I’m not a complicated person, and I don’t need a guy to make me happy, for now the best thing I could do is just to get some space from you.

     Chorus:

     I need to walk away for now, because I need some space.
    I am not saying that you’re a bad person, but the way things are right now, is just too hard for me to handle.
    I hope you understand, because space is all I need from you.
    I just need to walk away from you right now.
    You’ve caused me pain,
    You’ve made me cry,
    But you can’t seem to realize that.
    I know, I need to walk away from you. (x2)

     
    Sometimes, I think about our happy times and great moments that we’ve had.
    I know, that you have many things going for you, but sometimes I feel like I can’t say so much to you, because I get tongue tied and the words become twisted, but you always know the words to say to put my soul at ease.
    But, the one thing that I need to do right now is just to walk away from you.

     
    So, stop confusing me.
    Just let me go my own way.
    I know, that you’re just trying to make me feel better.
    I just need my space from you.
    I’m walking away for now.
    So, please don’t follow me.
    Its just hard for me to walk away.

     

     

     

     

     

     

Thursday, 20 December 2007

  • Currently Reading
    After Summer (Summer Boys)
    By Hailey Abbott
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    things on my mind these days.

    Its been awhile since I have written on here, maybe I've been mostly posting the songs that I've written,  but not really things that have going on in my life.
    When I guess, this is where I'll start, lol.
    Okay, so here I go: School has been going well, i mean it was going fine when it was September, but now that its December, its not really going well.
    I mean, ive done somethings that you could say, I regret, normally i dont regret things and this time, cause its bad to lie to someone when they expect you to tell the truth.

    Thats what happened to me a week ago at my Internship. I admit that what I did was wrong, before I say what it is, hehe. So, last time when my internship supervisor came to visit me at my internship, and asked me if there was anything that I should tell her, and i lied red handed. I mean, to me people lying should be like BAND, because it doesn't help at all. I dunno, why i did it, especially after being Baptized, im so mad at myself still.  I dunno, why so many things have been going wrong in my life. I'm still trying to figure that out myself as well. I love JESUS, and i know that all the things that have been going on in my life are all in His hands, and i trust the Lord to help me in this very stupid situation, and ill just hope for the best.

    Okay, so the people at my internship and 2 people from the program  at school found out that I went on a few websites while i was at my internship, and they had my head, they yelled at me, told me they cant trust me, and they don't know if I'm suitable for there program, and that to them it didn't seem like that I care about anything, just because I was sitting in there office and not saying doesn't mean that i didn't care, they wanted me to listen so thats what i was doing. I was listening to everything they were saying.
    Actually, I loved my internship and the people there are really nice and really friendly, but they no right to tell me they can kick me out of the Program, thats just wrong. 

    Tell me, do you think they have the right to kick me out of the program when its going to be my last semester there?  I don't think they do, because whats the point for them kicking me out of  the program, when in 5 months, ill be gone anyway. I'm just so shocked at them and of course im shocked at myself as well.  On top of that my mom shut off my cell phone, because of my high cell phone bill, i mean thats understandable and i know that i deserved it. 
    I mean, i know that my mom wants best for me, and thats why i love my mom so much, but sometimes I don't show it, and thats not a good thing. I know, I've been stupid in past couple weeks, and i know thats everything will be okay, in due time.

    The program wants to have a meeting with me and my mom to figure out if i should be kicked out or if i should stay and be put into an internship with a strict behavior contract, where ill be watched every move i make and take. Seriously, now thats just ridiculous, im sorry, but im not 5 years old and for them saying that in a letter that mom got, well i think thats just out of line. I'm that just confused at this point, cause of everything that has been going on.
    On the other hand, I've done a good job not thinking about it, until now, cause i just wanted to let it all out and fill everyone in on whats been up. Yeah!

    Today- I'm going to do some reading, my mom and I went to the Borders bookstore yesterday, and I got the last two books in Summer Boys series, I really wanted to know what happens in the end, and my mom told me that she would get it for me. I'm excited to read them, lol.
    I know, that some people think they are bad and that they have a lot of bad things in them, but so far this book pretty good, and i haven't come across anything bad. We'll see. Oh, Also ill be watching my soap opera from 3 to 4. Yeah, that should be fun. YAY!

    Tomorrow- I'm spending the day with Havah and then tomorrow night I'm going out to dinner with Becca Andersen, that should be a lot of fun, i dunno where we're gonna go, but I'm sure we will figure out a place to go, lol. I haven't seen Becca in awhile, so it should be good to see her.
    Also, ill probably finish my song writing book, I've got one page left, and I'm excited to be done with it, and move on to my next song book.
    I like writing songs, because its my way of expressing myself and letting people know how i feel, and of course ill read as well.

    I guess, thats about it for now.


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